A Divine Transformation

Life started getting better for me, I was much happier and fulfilled. I even lost some weight, I felt and looked great. I started school and work about two months after I received my acceptance letter in the mail. I moved to Baltimore, MD and shared an apartment with my sister and cousin. Even though I was evicted from my previous apartment, I didn't end up homeless. Everything work out in perfect timing, we found an apartment as soon as I had to leave the other one...isn't God faithful? 

I instantly started flourishing in the Master's of Public Health program, for the first time in my life I was an 'A' student. I was shocked when my colleagues would come and ask me for help, it was new to me. I knew for sure that I was at the right place at the right time. Before starting the program, I prayed for wisdom. I made up my mind to stand out and not to just "get by". At that time in my life, I knew that I was not a failure and that I had the spirit of God within me, teaching me all things. I put my all into it and trusted God to do the rest.

I'd pray before studying and prayed before every assignment and exam, I didn't take my education lightly as I did in the past. It is also worthy to note that this time around, I was actually studying what I was passionate about, that made a huge difference. Imagine, I even got an 'A' in bio statics and was asked to be the teaching assistant the following semester, prior to that I always failed math courses, it was definitely beyond me. 

During my time in Baltimore, God began to deal with me in various ways. He began preparing me for the future. For example, I was used to living alone so I always kept to myself while at home. My roommates were not happy about that, it became an issue so I had to adjust. I had to make out time to hang out with them, talk with them, etc. It was not easy but it was necessary. The Lord revealed to me that he was preparing me for marriage (this is about 1 year after the breakup). 

Another thing that the Lord dealt with me on was my cooking! Anyone that knew me then, knew that my cooking was horrible (especially my Nigerian dishes). It was so bad that when my dad visited me, he always had to order food. I began to look up recipes online and try them out. My roommates were my guinea pigs, at times I'd get past and sometimes an epic fail. 

One day one of my pastors at church mentioned how she'd ask the Holy Spirit to help her out in everything such as her dressing. It amazed me, I decided to try it out. I'd ask the Holy Spirit to help me choose an outfit and help me while cooking and in no time, those areas both change drastically. 

The Lord also dealt with me on the issue of anger. I had a very short temper and would say and do some hurtful things while angry. I became studying the Bible on having a meek and quiet spirit. I learned how to respond instead of reacting. I learned to pause, take a breath and think before speaking. I learned to manage my tone. I didn't realize how bad it was until one of my male friends drew my attention to it. We were outside church one day having a conversation and I overreacted. He told me that as a woman, I needed to chill. I was taken aback and went to work ASAP.

Another thing that I had to work on was my mindset. I had to learn how to trust people again. The Lord began to teach me how to look past people's flaws and love them. I had to learn how not to be judgmental or overly critical. At that time, I had a 'poverty mentality', I saw the bad in everything. I didn't believe in favor, I didn't believe that people could be good to you without wanting anything. I was disappointed by so many people so it was extremely difficult at first.

The Lord also began to teach me how to be a Godly wife. I got several books on relationships and marriage, I had a bookshelf full of them. I was determined to get it right the next time around. He taught me about submission and honoring my husband. He taught me how to develop the qualities that I desires in my spouse, such as: selflessness, affection, having a good personality, etc. 

One of the greatest changes that I experienced during this time was liberty. I became free from all the things that held me bound in the past. As I began to study the bible on who I was in Christ Jesus and what he did for me on the cross, I fell in love with me. I realized as a member of the royal priesthood I couldn't do certain things. I was no longer interested in sexual immoral things, I said bye, so long, and farewell to porn, masturbation, and premarital sex. I stopped drinking and partying. I tried to stop all these things in the past but failed woefully, this time around I learned to fellowship with the grace of God and silence the voice of the devil. I learned that it all began with my thoughts, so when negative thoughts came I replaced them with what the Word of God said concerning that particular issue. 

It was a bitter sweet season for me. The Lord stretched me beyond my imagination. A part of me wanted to remain stuck in my ways while another part knew that it was time for change. Change was not easy, but with the Holy Spirit I evolved gracefully. Within a short period of time, I changed drastically. I didn't recognize myself anymore. A church member approached me one day and asked me what happened to me. She said I was happier and more confident, I just smiled. It was hard to explain but it was the Lord at work in me. 

Every area of my life was great but there was one area that saddened me when I thought about it...I was still single, I wanted to be in a relationship, I wanted to be loved...I had a plan, I would be married at the age of 25, have my first child by 27...but 25 showed up and I was still single...I was not happy.



You're blessed!


- Bunmi


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Preach It!

And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature. (Mark 16:15 KJV)

Have you ever been deeply in love with someones? Or have you ever been so excited about something new?... You were so giddy and you couldn't keep the good news to yourself! All your friends, family and anyone that cared to listen just had to hear it...you just couldn't keep it to yourself!!!

Yeah I've been there too...I'm smiling to myself as I write this.

Well, this shouldn't just be a feeling or distant memory, it should be a daily occurrence.

The Lord Jesus has committed the preaching of his gospel-the real good news into our hands. If we seat back and think, we can not deny that he's been too good, too faithful, too merciful, too gracious (the list is eternal). Someone needs to hear how good God is, someone needs to know that God loves them, someone needs to know that Jesus paid the ultimate price for their life. Some people won't hear this good news until YOU tell it to them...yes I mean YOU!!! 

The whole thought of winning souls may sound overwhelming or boring to you. That's because you think you have to do it by yourself. However, scriptures say that we are co laborers with Christ (1 Corinthians 3:9; 2 Corinthians 6:1), simply put we are his "coworkers". He's already done the work, we are just his spokesmen, his recruiters. There's no need to stress on the job, just do your part and get rewarded for it. People are waiting for you (John 4:34-35; Luke 10:2), stop procrastinating! You don't have to go on a mission trip to preach the good news, they're souls all around you: in your neighborhood, at work, school, etc. Just take a few minutes to tell them what the Lord has done.

When you preach the gospel, Jesus shows up on the scene (Matthew 28:18-20; Mark 16:20). There is no need to worry about whether or not the person will give their lives, that's not your responsibility. Take the first step to open your mouth and the Holy Spirit will fill it with the right Words (Luke 12:12). The bible says that the person who wins souls is wise (Proverbs 11:30). Be wise, save people from eternal damnation. Team up with Jesus today and PREACH IT!

Confession: Father in the name of Jesus, I commit myself to winning souls for you. As I preach the gospel, I declare that the Lord shows up and confirms his Word with signs and wonders. Amen. 

Prayer starter: Father, I thank you for committing the great commission into my hands. I asked for creative ways to preach your gospel and win souls for you, in Jesus' name. Amen.

You're blessed!


- Bunmi


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Light At The End of the Tunnel

Getting over Daniel was long and hard. It was a very dark road. Even though my life was much better without him. Somewhere deep down inside of me, I felt like he was "the one". I know what he had been through and I just wanted to be there for him, to help him heal and become a better man. I often defended him amongst friends and family, I felt like he was misunderstood even though we weren't together anymore.

While one part of me held on to him, the other part moved on tremendously in other areas of my life. All the broken pieces of my life were being repaired by the master planner himself! As I spent time studying the Word and looking for every opportunity to be in his presence (I was in church at least 3 times a week), he started molding me and shaping me into who I was destined to be. I became happier, more driven, and my confidence skyrocketed. I've never felt such peace before.

After failing physical therapy school, I started seeking God for direction about what career path to chose. I knew that I had a passion to help others better themselves, whether it was in the careers, relationships, walk with God, etc. I had already discovered my purpose a few years prior to that; which is to empower young women to live a life of purpose, become well-rounded individuals, and to live a life of sexual purity. I desired a career that would encompass both my passion and purpose.

****Let's back track a bit****

How did I ever discover my purpose? I'm sure you're wondering...

Well it was a regular day in 2006, I just returned to my dorm and as I walked past the visitor's registration desk I saw something that caught my attention. It was a book titled, "Single, Saved, and Selibate". It was free so I grabbed a copy. I started reading it and I couldn't put it down. It was a story about a young lady's struggle with remaining pure until marriage. I enjoyed the book because she was so real and I could relate. Most Christians that I knew formed "holy than thou" and acted like they've never been tempted or have fallen into temptation before. So I appreciated her courage to be honest. It didn't make her less of a Christian.

I was so intrigued by this book that I couldn't stop thinking about it. I had to email the author and thank her for inspiration. She replied my email! And she was so nice! After a couple of emails, I told her that I felt led to start an all girl's group and wanted to use her book. She not only sent me the books for free but she autographed each one! Talk about favor! At that time I was still involved in the church I grew up in and I honestly didn't see an avenue for such a group neither did I have the confidence to stand before people and speak. So I chickened out and just distributed the books to each girl instead, praying that the young ladies would be as blessed as I was by it.

By then I had no idea I was called into ministry, however I remember a day when it was first revealed to me. I was around the age of 12 and I was seated in my room when suddenly a picture flash before me, I saw myself in a vision standing before a large crowd and I was speaking to them. I couldn't quite understand it then and I was extremely shy so I dismissed it as a figment of my imagination.

Thank God for the church that I joined when I moved in with my cousin. I became a worker in 2007. Started growing and met great people that were doing great things, who inspired me to follow my dreams. After fighting the urge for so long, I finally worked up the courage to start the all girl ministry in the teenage church in 2009. I wasn't sure about how to go about it and I was still struggling with my personal issues but I couldn't fight it any longer.

In the beginning, I wasn't that into it. The shame and guilt of my own struggles held me bound. The devil would taunt me and tell me that I wasn't qualified, etc you know how he does! Lie! But after the breakup in the last quarter of 2009, I put my all into it. I didn't want any of the young ladies to go through what I did. And to the glory of God, so many lives were transformed through the ministry.

***Now, Let's continue where I left off...

So after much prayer and counsel from others, I perceived that God wanted me to go into Public Health. It was perfect for me, it was broad, a growing profession, and had a lot of opportunities. I discovered that I had to take the GRE before applying to schools. And boy o boy did I hate standardized exams! I always struggled with them, it was by God's grace that I even passed the SATs while in high school.

I tried my best to study for the exam but I didn't do much to be honest. My score was pretty low, but I decided to apply for schools anyway. I applied to two well-renowned universities and was devastated when I was rejected by both of them. One of the schools said my GRE score was too low. At this point, I was tired of everything, I hated my job (found a job at a law firm), I was not in graduate school, and I was lonely (I wasn't used to be single).

And then to make matters worse, in December 2009 (five months after I started), I lost my job. The company went bankrupt and had to let all its employees go...hmm, another disappointment!

Life became so unbearable, I felt like I had bad luck or I was cursed. Thankfully, my wonderful friends encouraged me to re-take the GRE, I was hesitant and didn't have the money but my friends kept pushing me. One of them gave me the money and I registered for the exam. I lacked motivation to study for it, which probably explains why I did so poorly, I did worst than I did the first time. I was extremely discouraged. And then shortly after that, I was evicted from my apartment because I hadn't paid my rent in months.


Could it get any worse???

A few weeks later, I worked up the courage and gather some money to pay for another grad school application. I reapplied to one of the schools that rejected me before, and lo and behold it happened again! I didn't get accepted. It felt like my heart was shatter3ed into a million pieces. I began to question if God really told me to pursue a career in Public Health, I felt that if he did then it shouldn't have been so hard! 

My money was running low, so I applied to any and every kind of job so that I could at least pay my bills, but I didn't get anything stable. Just temporary positions.

****AND THEN THERE WAS LIGHT!

One day my younger sister called me, she told me about a Master's of Public Health program at her school and encouraged me to apply. But I didn't want to hear it. I had lost hope. After a few pep talks from friends and family, I applied reluctantly, I waited to submit my application on the deadline day. I didn't put much effort into making my application stand out.

A few weeks later I was called for an interview over the phone, it went well. Then a few months later, I received an email that had me rejoicing for a long time! To the glory of God! I got accepted into the school, and if that wasn't enough I was offered a scholarship! God is good!

You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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Wisdom: The Principal Thing

Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding. (‭Proverbs‬ ‭4‬:‭7‬ KJV)

What comes to your mind when you hear the Word wisdom?

Some people may automatically utter the two words, "applied knowledge" or instantly picture a large stack of books, maybe even picture a person with tons of degrees and decades of experience in their field of study.

What does the bible say about wisdom?

The bible says a number of things about wisdom, which indicates its importance. In particular, the book of proverbs, is the believer's guide to wisdom. Our opening scripture tells us that wisdom is the principal thing, it is the most important thing.

Often times, people think that the most important thing is money. Many people feel that once there's is money, all issuues are solved. Don't get me wrong, money is great! It is a neccesity, it was created for us to transact in this earthly realm. However, there are some things that money can not buy and money doesn't fall from the sky nor grow on trees. With wisdom of God money will begin to work for you and not the other way around.

There are varying stages of wisdom. For starters, wisdom begins when one has the fear of the Lord (Psalm 111:10; Proverbs 9:10; Proverbs 15:33). In other words, when you decide to reverence God (honoring God in all you do/put him first) you've stepped into the first phase of wisdom. Psalm 111:10b informs of the next phase, which is to obey the commandements of God. 

Staying within the parameters of these two stages of wisdom is paramount. We can never stop honoring God by putting him first at all times; neither can we stop obeying him. As we continue therein, we get to the end of ourselves, and enter a place where we acknowledge that our own "wisdom" is very limited and that we need the wisdom of God to thrive in life. God is all knowing, so what's the point of trying to figure out things on our own?

Wisdom is received, the book of James chapter 1 and verse 5 says, 

If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

No one can receive true wisdom outside of God. God's design for mankind is to seek him at all times for all things. Not to struggle and spend time, money, etc trying to figure it out via other means.
God tells us to ask for wisdom when ever we discover that it's lacking. Have you ever found yourself in a confusing situation? What did you do? Did you call a friend or family member? Google it? or wallow in sorrow?

All of the choices above are WRONG! The first thing to do is to reach out to the alpha and omega, our father who longs to reveal great and mighty things to us. Never be too busy or in a hurry to wait on God for wisdom, it will save you time, resources, money, etc.


Wisdom is the principal thing, in all that you do seek it!

You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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Tough Times

The breakup hit me hard...real hard. It was like 'adding insult to injury'. Daniel chose the absolute wrong time to breakup with me, or did he?

A few months before the breakup I failed out of physical therapy school. I got into the doctor of physical therapy program right after I graduated from college. I was excited initially, I was so sure that I wanted to be a physical therapist at the time. And to top it off after completion of the program, I would have the title "Dr.".....yiippeee!

Well the excitement didn't last long. The program was a three year program, and it was very rigorous. There were strict requirements to remain in the program, for example you could not get a B in more than two courses throughout the duration of the program. I was always an average "B" student, so that was a big deal for me. 

After a year of struggling with the program, I was told to withdraw. I got my first 'B' during my first semester, so I was already on pins and needles. By the second semester I encountered one of the more difficult courses and didn't do well. To top it off, some the professors weren't very encouraging. 

When I was asked to withdraw, It was bitter sweet. It was bitter because I felt like a failure, it was sweet became deep down within I knew that physical therapy was not for me. I was not happy but I thought I could wing it. I later learned that true fulfillment could not be winged. 

This became apparent to me one day during a clinical rotation at a physical therapy clinic, which was a requirement for the physical therapy program. Each day that I went there, I was extremely bored. However one day, a teenager boy came in for treatment and we instantly connected. I found great joy in helping him recover from his foot injury. I was instantly reminded of my passion for the youth and that made me happy.

Even though I was asked to withdraw for school without the possibility of coming back, I still had to take the final exams and submit papers. Imagine the torture of stay up all night while knowing that the door had been closed before you. Nonetheless, I was determined to finish strong. Thankfully there was a friend that I made during my time in the program whom was in the same shoes, we derived strength from one another. At the end of it all, I said my goodbyes without looking back, chapter closed!

After failing out of school, I was extremely confused about what to do next. After some thought, I decided to start looking for a job until I figured things out. I applied to so many places without getting a response, I was distraught and loosing hope by the day. Thankfully I was able to get a few temporary positions through a temp agency but I needed something more stable. It got to a point where I could no longer afford to pay my bills, so I had to move out of my apartment to somewhere more affordable.

It seemed like things were going from bad to worse. It was one of the most trying times of my life. And in the midst of all this, Daniel left me...hmm. I felt so alone, those that I considered to be my good friends suddenly disappeared, I'd see them and they'd act as if I was nonexistent. People started looking down on me because I was now "single" I even had a friend say "I know it was your fault, because he's a good God-fearing man and you know they're hard to find these days." 

For a longtime I did blame myself...I blamed my low self esteem, body image issues, introverted nature, etc. "If only I was prettier...if only I was slimmer...if only I was more out going...maybe he wouldn't have left me", these thoughts took up most of my days.

Thankfully God sent me some remarkable people to help me cope during this time. Great friends that are family now! They were always there to listen, they never judged me. I never felt so loved. I've always prayed for God to send me great friends and in the midst of my drama, he answered me and blessed me with destiny helpers. I sincerely don't know how I wouldn't have made it through without the grace of God and my lovely friends (they know who they are).

One of the father figures that I had at that time told me something very important that helped me, he told me to always keep a smile on my face especially when Daniel was around, so that he would know that I could be happy without him. Most times I was faking it, I'd cry myself to sleep the night before, wake up feeling dejected, cry on my way to church, because I'd know I'd see him (at least twice a week), and then I'd arrive at church faking a smile through out service, and then burst into tears once I got into my car and the cycle continued all over again.

However, one day the smile became REAL! It was a result of the joy of the Lord bursting from within me...I couldn't keep it to myself.

Stay tuned for the reason behind this joy...

You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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Who Am I?

Happy Mother's Day to all my female readers! I had an awesome first mother's day on Sunday!!! I thank God for the priviledge to be the mother of a beautiful baby girl!

To all my readers that are trusting God for a baby, I have good news for you! It's going to happen before you know it, because God has promised that none of his children will be barren (Exodus 23:26; Deu.7:14). Shortly after I got married, there were infertilty scares but I turned to God and reminded him of his Word and he rewarded my faith in him. I'm not special, I'm just a believer. Be encouraged today, God is faithful! Receive your babies by faith today.

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Now unto today's devotional: 

And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt? And he said, Certainly I will be with thee; and this shall be a token unto thee, that I have sent thee: When thou hast brought forth the people out of Egypt, ye shall serve God upon this mountain. (Exodus 3:11-12 KJV)

Have you ever had a dream or vision that was bigger than yourself? Winning trillions of souls for Jesus? Discovering cures for age long diseases? Inventing the next big 'thing'? Becoming a business mogul? Getting to the epitome of your career? Having a world-wide ministry? Feeding and clothing multitudes of homeless people? Owning an orphanage? Building a school for the less privileged? 

Then that's a good dream! There's a saying that goes "If your dream doesn't scare you then it's not big enough", I don't believe in fear so I'd say it like this "If your dream doesn't draw you to your knees to seek God's help, then your dream isn't big enough". A man of God once said that God gives us big dreams so that we will look to him for help to fulfill them, he's not expecting us to do it by ourselves.

When God revealed Moses' purpose to him, he looked at himself and deemed it impossible. He had a poor self image and he complained about the way he stuttered. He couldn't get past his flaws to see who God created him to be. He asked, Who am I? Have you ever asked yourself the same question? God has given you big dreams and you look at your past and say "No! not someone like me" or you look at your present situation and say "How can any good come out of this". This was me a few years ago, I had visions of doing great things. However when I looked in the mirror, my imperfections stared me down. Now, I'm doing things that I never imagined by the grace of God. And I have good news for you, it doesn't matter who you were or what you are going through presently; It doesn't matter what you've done, your past mistakes are irrelevant. Please believe that dreams come through!

I love how God replied Moses by saying, "Certainty, I will be with you". Isn't that beautiful? He didn't address Moses' insecurity, instead he told him that he wasn't going to be alone. He let him know that he had his back, and that he was guaranteed success. Now, that's what you call the God factor! You can not do anything worthwhile in your own strength. To really succeed in life, you need the ever abiding presence of God. Having the presence of God with you triumphs any other credential. At a point in your life you will realize that your degrees, accomplishments, skills, etc can only get you so far. However when you add the God factor, opportunities are endless. Nothing is impossible for someone that has the God factor and is conscious of it. 

Have you ever heard of filthy rich people being unhappy? Or having sicknesses that money can't cure? Or celebrities who are adored by many but are empty within? They're missing something vital, they have voids that only God can fill.

The God factor is your advantage, it separates you from the crowd. The God factor adds the super to your human, making you a superhuman. Because the very presence of the Lord lives in you, you're divinity plus humanity on two legs walking. Nothing is impossible for God, therefore nothing is impossible for those who believe in him (Mark 9:23). It's not about who you are or who you know, it's about who you're with. Our God greater, he's higher than any other, he's all powerful, all knowing, and ever present. 

Stop asking yourself "Who am I?" Start telling yourself: "Certainly, God is with me! He lives in me (Psalm 46:5), he'll never leave or forsake me (Deu. 31:6)."

As a believer you're not ordinary, you're in the world but the world is not your source. Your father in heaven is your source and sustainer, therefore you're experiences are defined by Grace and seasoned with glory. You're highly favored and above only, you life gets better and better (Proverbs 4:18).

Confession: Thank you father for your ever abiding presence in my life. I declare that every dream and vision that God has laid on my heart finds expression in the name of Jesus. Amen

Prayer starter: Father I thank you for the big dreams that you've given me. I ask for the grace to walk in the awareness of the fact that you're with me. Therefore I am not afraid to dream big. In Jesus' name, Amen.

You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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Emotional Roller Coaster

I and Daniel's relationship started beautiful, it was like a dream come true. He was romantic, caring, and generous but it all fizzled out shortly.

One word that sums up I and Daniel's relationship is...DRAMA!!!
We were up one day and down the next, calling it an emotional roller coaster is an understatement. I believe we both cared about each other but we weren't mature enough to be in a committed relationship at that time of our lives. He had personal struggles and so did I. We were both hurting and as the saying goes "hurt people hurt others". He had commitment and childhood issues and I had self esteem issues. 

At the beginning of our relationship we both agreed that we wouldn't have sex until we were married. We managed to abstain for about a year, but we eventually fell. Back then I felt horrible because I knew what God told me, I felt like a failure. But I've discovered that we fell because we relied on our own strength and didn't set boundaries. The kissing and touching will eventually lead to the act.

Shortly after we became intimate, our relationship started falling apart. We had too many issues to count. We just couldn't get along, we opened the door to the enemy and he was having a party. Our relationship became abusive (verbally & physically)on both ends. All of a sudden I wasn't good enough for him, I was too fat, couldn't dress, too shy, etc. He was once my prince charming but he turned into an arrogant, harsh, monster. I wasn't perfect neither.

We both felt guilty about being intimate and indirectly blamed one another. Half way through our relationship, we both rededicated our lives to Christ and became workers at our church. The Holy Spirit was convicting us of our misdeeds and we didn't know how to stop. We'd pray for forgiveness and fall again time without number. We felt terrible, we felt like we couldn't control ourselves. We were also ashamed and felt like we couldn't talk to anyone about it.

After struggling for so long we finally made a decision to stop. We managed to do so but by then the damage had already been done. We discovered that our relationship didn't have a solid foundation. After the sex stop, there was nothing to keep us going. We were bored in each other's presence, we didn't have the same goals, etc.

After breaking up and making up a few times, Daniel finally called things off. No matter how much I cried and begged he was done. After 3 and 1/2 years I felt betrayed, we were supposed to get married. I made up my mind to deal with his imperfections while secretly hoping that he'd change. I made up my mind to put up with the abuse. I made up my mind to settle for him because I thought he was as good as it gets. Well, thank God he broke up with me! What was I thinking?

Although it hurt so much and I hated the time period for so long, it turned out to be a major turning point in my life. Back then I thought my life was over, but when I look back now I rejoice because it was when my life actually began. It was the time that led to me fully committing myself to God.


You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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He Cares

Happy New Month!!! 

I don't know about you but I'm excited about this new month. I know that God has great things in store for you and I!

I got a text message from a friend yesterday that made me think long and hard. She informed me that one of our High School colleagues had passed away. I was sadden as the details surrounding his death unfolded. I wondered to myself, what if he knew Jesus? What if someone told him that Jesus is real? What if someone told him that Jesus loved him? Maybe he knew at one point but needed a friendly reminder....

Here's a friendly reminder to you all today, God cares...

1 Peter 5:7 King James Version (KJV)

7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. 

Psalm 55:22 King James Version (KJV)22 Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

God cares about every minute detail of our lives. He never takes his eyes off of us. He is ever present, even when we don't "feel" him. He is concerned with what concerns us, he understands ever hurt, pain, disappointment, etc (Hebrews 4:15). He knows that we have needs; even before they arise he has already made provisions for us(Matthew 6:8).

Attempting to carry something that weighs more than you will led to you loosing your balance and wobbling all over the place. You're up one moment and back down the next moment. You'll find yourself struggling to stay grounded unless you receive help. Getting help from someone who weighs more than you and can in turn carry what you were struggling with relieves you of stress. You'll be able to regain your balance.

Human beings were not designed to bear burdens, we were created to live totally dependent on God. In this present society, we see an increase in cases of depression, suicide, and other stress induced diseases. Why is that? It's a result of man getting to the end of himself, and loosing control of his life. When Jesus left the scene, he didn't leave us to fend for ourselves (John 14:16-18). He promised us 24 hours a day - 7 days a week - 365 days a year of divine assistance (John 14:26). We don't need to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders because God already has the whole world in his hands.

God is our father, he created us and he is our source and sustainer. If you loose sight of this, you'll find yourself trying to fill his shoes which is impossible. He knows what you need to have a fulfilled life and he's more than willing to give it to you. All you have to do is play your part which is to believe him for it and he'll play his part by giving you what you have enough faith to believe him for.

Yes it's okay to desire houses, cars, wealth, a spouse, children, stylish clothing, etc. They were created for us, however we were not created for them. People miss it when they believe that they were born to work for things, things were designed to work for us. The desire for this things shouldn't become what drives us, living a life of purpose and oneness with our father should.

The father cares about us absolutely, we are the object of his affection, the apple of his eye, his love for us is absolute, we are the beloved of God (3 John 1:2). We are always on his mind, even the angels marvel at the love that God bestows on us (Psalms 8:4). Believe in the love of God, don't carry any burden, don't allow cares to overwhelm you, don't worry, he knows what your needs are (Luke 12: 22-28). Just ask and believe and you'll have it (Philippians 4:6), then patiently await their manifestations (Hebrews 6:12).

You're blessed!

- Bunmi

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